I’m Back!

Why I took such a long hiatus? I’m not quite sure. Nevertheless, I’m back to sharing my thoughts on this blog!

I love writing on this blog, so why have I stopped doing it? I’ve asked myself this question a million times, and I’ve narrowed my answers down to a few. The one that sticks out as most interesting to me is that maybe the act of pursuing something I know makes me happy was scaring me. It’s like some mental road block that fears me being happy and for some reason, makes doing enjoyable things so much more difficult. Does that happen to anyone else? If it does, I feel you and I understand you.

Let’s talk about it. The fear of pursuing something you know will make you happy. What a strange thing! I think this comes from a place of feeling unworthy of being happy. It could also come about if you are recovering from depression or another mental illness that has left you feeling so unhappy for so long. Those negative feelings have become so familiar to you that doing something that makes you happy feels uncomfortable, so your brain tries to resist it.

The first step to overcoming this mental road block is to recognize it’s existence. So, step one complete! The next step is to acknowledge that you are more than your thoughts, and that these mental road blocks do not have to control your actions. Understand that the things that make you happy are sitting out there waiting for you to obtain them, and the only person that can make you reach out and grab them is yourself. Finally, making that extra push like I’m doing now! Any step, no matter how small, is a step in a positive direction. Every time you get just a little bit closer to doing the things that make you happy, the more you are breaking down the walls of your restrictive, emotional comfort zone.

Today I took a step in overcoming one of my mental road blocks by posting again. Now it’s your turn! I believe in you.

– Avery